I am not well. Not sure what is going on but I haven’t been well now for a couple of months. Just seems to be one thing after another. First I got a fever, then stomach aches. Then it actually all went away for a bit which was cool. Now it has come back worse. Stomach aches, a cold and my hip has seized up putting me back on crutches. And, oh my God, I am so very tired.

This post isn’t really about anything. I’m just being self indulgent and ranting a bit. It is quite difficult to cope with something like this when you have spent so much time and energy trying to get yourself better and it all seems in vain. BUT…there is a but…I did find a silver lining. I had to go on a course of steroids but I realised that this is the first course I have had to go on in about 10 months. That is not bad. Once I am over this I am going to see if I can push that to a year.

When you take day to day by the little wins, the big knock backs take a huge toll. It’s always good to take a step back and see how far you have come. I haven’t really lost any weight. I am still stronger than I have ever been and with my current lifestyle I feel I can get over this hiccup quicker. I am trying not to be too hard on myself.

That it I guess. Any other crohnies out there going through something similar than please email me. In the meantime here is a dope French slam poet called Grand Corps Malade. Watch the video and play it loud.

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