Well it has been a rough kind of week. Been feeling really down for many reasons and really not feeling myself. It has taken a lot for me to actually write this down because usually (I have been told), I internalize what I feel and think. I know that this really affects my Crohn’s. Whenever I feel down, I can feel the pressure right in my gut and it is horrible. Probably more so than the actual physical pains because at least with that, you can take a painkiller.

My training is really helping me. It has bought me face to face with a lot of my inner demons. Not saying that I have overcome them, but I know that they exist. The reason I feel the need to mention all of this is because I feel my mental well being is essential for my physical well being.

The last thing that helped me get over my recent funk is the knowledge that I have a lot of people out there that like me. Which is surprising because, as my cousin said ‘Shaanvir doesn’t really take well to people.’ Seriously he said that in front of one of my friends. I know. What a knob.

But it got me thinking that the people I have around me aren’t around me because they have to but because they want to. And I appreciate that.

Again not sure why I am mentioning all of this. I suppose the moral is that there is always a silver lining. If you focus too much on what is going wrong, then you will just spiral into a well of depression. But if you can see that there is good out there, then it will push you to fight and make things better. How deep am I!

Also, anyone that knows me knows that Bruce Lee is one of my greatest hero’s and I watched a recent documentary on him. BADASS! Anyway he had a list of things he wanted to achieve in his life. One thing on his list really resonated with me and I have adopted it as my new life goal. ‘I will live the way I please and achieve inner harmony and happiness’. I honestly thought that Bruce Lee couldn’t be more awesome but there you have it.

So my song this time is from Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds. I think Nick Cave is awesome and this song is the Higgs Boson Blues. There is nothing uncool about him or this song.